here do I reflect back on one of the stories I was working on. and I found it interesting that I was not really aware that the core message was applying to my self. this was probably the case since the story was worked on in bits and pieces and was like every thing but in the final stages. so I will show a unique way, for me at least of working on this type of project that maybe fun to see. but story wise did I notice that is revolved a lot around death, and how to deal with that. and forgetfulness something I struggled a lot with in those times. and my need to explore. and not dealing with my wants and needs directly but escaping in a fantasy world.